When I'm Exhausted and Yet Still Typing

I'm actually exhausted but still in the mood of typing. I've been depressed with my life and myself lately but when I look around me, I tell myself to be grateful with what I have. Even though I face a lot of difficulty that other people won't understand, I still the love one around me. Especially Mr Hall. Since the 999 tragedy, he's always with me and give me all the support that he can. And he always pampered me. It's so nice to have someone who loves to pampered you and loves you so much that you keep telling yourself, yes it's happening.

Sometimes we do fight and mad at each others' annoying attitude but love is stronger than everything. Not seeing him for only few days really drag me into loneliness. Just imagine having to live without him? I don't even what to think about that. He's not just a lover, he's my soulmate and always be my best friend. I can share everything with him. And I'm sharing my whole life, my whole world and me with him.

I'm not the person who flirts around and having crush here and there with the guys but when I love somebody, I love him with all my heart and soul. Thank you Mr Hall for helping me mending my broken heart. The pains are sometimes there but with a look from your eyes and touch from your hand, all the pains seems to be swept away. Loving you is something that i can't even be explained.

Showdown 2011 Here We Come

I never missed Showdown 2010 last year. Yeah, I'm so into dance and love it since I was younger. But this year Showdown 2011, I rarely able to watched it since I'm kinda busy lately but my family never miss watching it. Currrently I'm watching it again on 8TV. Gosh! I should be sleeping by now since tomorrow is working day. But I can't help it and I want to watch my favorite group, HMC Phlow. They were amazing last year and still amaze me this year.

Why I love Kimora Lee Simmons

If you know her reality show, Kimora: Life in the Fab Lane, you'll know her. I watched the series from first season. Ming and Aoki were still small and cute. I love to watch how a model, mogul and a mom manage her life, career, business and family. She's the idol for most of the woman.

I love the way she treat her kids. She always explain to them whenever they ask her about question. Not like other regular mum that will ask her kids to shut up when they ask her questions or maybe create an imaginary story which is a total lie to the kids. I don't have kids, but I try to follow Kimora's approached by explaining things to my lil brother. You know kids, they will ask a lot of questions and don't forgot, you were kids too. In my opinion, they better get the correct information from us rather than other sources like friends or Internet that can lead them to wrong information or wrong interpretation. The famous question is

"Mummy, where do baby comes from?"

Well, it's hard to explain exactly how the baby come from but at least use something that is logical rather than telling the kids,

"Baby came from the moon."

I love how Kimora struggle from being the kids that people like to pick on just because of her height and she's mix of Japanese-Korean (mom's side) and African-American (dad's side). Unlike in Malaysia we're proud of being mix with more than one race but in US they call her Oreo. Karl Lagerfield was her tutor when she became one of Chanel's model. She met Russell Simmons, owner of Phat Farm and she open another line called Baby Phat. After Russell sold Phat Farm, Kimora has been promoted as the Creative Director of Baby Phat. She open another line after that which is KLS.

 

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That's a lot of story about her but you can read the rest in Wikipedia. She could be fierce with her staff but she appreciated them. I love to watch the show in E! especially when back to back series is aired. That's what I love bout KLS.

Nobody to Somebody

I love writing. And sometimes the inspiration just come by and you feel like you wanna write it down. what I do if no pen and paper, not in front of laptop? I wrote it in my phone notes. So I won't forget it. And if it's sweet, I will write it down in SMS and sent it to Mr Hall.

We try to be somebody. Maybe somebody that you imagine to be when you were younger or somebody that you never imagine you could be. It depends on how you plan your future and whether it go with the flow or turn out to be another way. But let us pray it'll turn up to something better. I was nobody when I was younger, somebody for sometimes and currently nobody. I'm saying in term of career. But in life I'm somebody's daughter, sister and lover.

When you feel like you're losing something in life, look again around you cause you still have a lot of people loving you. There are things that you lost and you could gain back but there's also something that you lost and you will never get it back. Like death, you'll lose that person forever. Similar as trust. Trust is like a mirror. Once it shattered, even you put it back together, it won't be the same. Appreciate what you have cause you won't know when you're going to lose it.

I'm Not Cinderella

Cinderella by Tata Young

When I was just a little girl

My momma used to tuck me into bed and she read me a story

It always was about a Princess in distress

And how a guy would save her and end up with the glory I’d lie in bed and think about the person that I wanted to be

Then one day I realized the fairy tale life wasn’t for me

[Chorus]

I don’t wanna be like Cinderella

Sittin’ in a dark old dusty cellar

Waiting for somebody, to come and set me free

I don’t wanna be like Snow White waiting

For a handsome prince to come and save me

On a horse of white, unless we’re riding side by side

Don’t want to depend on no-one else

I’d rather rescue myself

Someday I’m gonna find someone who wants my soul, heart and mind

Who’s not afraid to show that he loves me

Somebody who will understand I’m happy just the way I am Don’t need nobody taking care of me

I will be there for him just as strong as he, will be there for me

When I give myself then it has got to be, an equal thing

[Chorus]

I can slay, my own dragon

I can dream, my own dreams

My knight in shining armour is me

So I’m gonna set me free

I like this song. Such an inspiration. The first time I heard this song is by Cheetah Girls then by Tata Young. Not sure who is the original singer but as I know none of those two. Well, I used to believe in fairytales when I was younger and I believe the phrase “… and they lived happily ever after.” I believe that someday i will meet my Prince Charming.

If you asked me now, Fairytale is bullshit and Prince Charming does not exist. I don’t know which generation you are but in now generation, you can’t just sit and wait to rescued. You have to rescue yourself. Other people can only help. In the end it depends on you. Fairytale has its moral value where you need to fight to get “happily ever after”. Please people I’m not a fairytale hater. I love fairytale but life is not fairytale. Life is a reality. Once you fall nobody gonna pick you up or so-called rescue you.

Prince Charming! All my life, I’ve been waiting for my Prince Charming. He will come and save me from this cruel life. But it does not exist. No matter how long I’ll wait Prince Charming never show up. I love my man the way he is. I never wanted him to be the Prince Charming. Coz he is special in his own way. Something you can feel but you can’t describe. That is him. Prince Charming is too perfect and will never exist in this life. Like I said people can help you but you are the one who will rescue yourself. You are the knight in shining armour. Since I was young I keep rescuing myself. We can never depend on any man or anybody else.

If you feel life is cruel, the only person that you rescue you is YOU! Rescue yourself now.

Me In The Maze

Me In The Maze? Why?
Have you ever wonder that through our life, we’re in search of finding the correct and the best way to our goal. Depends on the goal that you want to achieve in your life and please people make it a good one. What ‘m saying is our life is like in a maze. Some of us have to struggle and some are so lucky they can get everything they want. But when it’s hard to get something that you want, that is when you will learn from your teacher, the Experience. I gotta say experience is the best teacher. You can learn a lot of things in this life but it’s all depends on you.


I’m not one of the lucky person that gets everything that I want easily. I have to go through a lot of things and it ain’t easy. But I always be patient and try my best to achieve something that I really badly. I might not get the exact things that I want but sometimes it’s better than what I ever dream of. That’s why you need to work on what you want in your life and how it’s going to be. You dream of being somebody when you’re still a kid and when you grew up, you turned up to be somebody else. Somebody better.
It’s hard to find a right path in the maze coz they’ll be a lot of people tryna bring you down. That’s when you need to be strong. A strong person will secure himself/herself from any harm. Protect yourself from being insecure. That is what other people want. They want you to stop moving forward, break down and cry.

If you can protect your computer, why can’t you protect yourself?

*Images extracted from Google.

Secure Browsing in Facebook using Https

I was browsing the Facebook one day and notice my friend's status 'Dev.. is now using the secure HTTPS browsing mode in Facebook'. Apparently he was kind enough to share how he change the configuration in Facebook that allow you to browse in a secure environment. Why? Because there are lots of fraud in the internet and you might be browsing a fake website. Usually internet online banking will use the secure browsing so you know that you're in the correct website, not the fraud website. So fellas, follow the steps below.


1. Click Home. (I assumed you already log in toFacebook)

2. Click Account > Account Settings.
3. Under Settings, scroll down to Account Security and click Change.
4. Tick the checkbox Browse Facebook on a secure connection (https) whenever possible.
5. Click Save.



So, once you login into Facebook,you'll be able to see in the address bar, Facebook URL will be https in stead of http. This is secure browsing.

Thanks Devster for the tips.

Facebook News Feed not showing everyone?

Hey all! Ever wonder you always see the updates of the same people. What happen to others? Have they forgotten you? Are you invisible to them? It's not because of that, it's actually a setting in Facebook that only shows the updates of the people you recently interact. How to change the setting to see updates from all your friends in the list? Just follow the steps below.


1. Login into Facebook. (Obviously you have to do that).
2. Click Home. (By default it will show Home)
2. Under News Feed scroll until the end of the page.

3. Click Edit Options.
4. Under Show posts from, select All of your friends and pages.
5. Click Save. 

Well after this, you won't miss any updates from your friends. Try it out fellas! 

The Beginning

I decided to open back an english blog. I have one in Malay but not everyone especially the one not from Malaysia knows Bahasa Malaysia. So I decided to create another blog in English. At the same time I can improve my English, yes?

I might take few entries from my entry in another blog and make it full English in here. So anyone who like my blog you can follow this blog and even if you're a silent reader, I still appreciate you for stopping by.Enjoy your reading here!